Sara and I went to the movies tonight. Not to take our minds off of things but just to see a movie, okay maybe to take our minds off things too.
Well if I am going to talk about, you know, I might as well say I really appreciate your support. It’s real hard because we could totally be worried for nothing, wait a sec, we do have something to worry about, I am so confused. But as my good friend Hobby told me today, “Worrying wont help”. He is so right because what does worry do? Start wars by spreading fear with WMDs, oh wait, sorry; I had to throw that in so you know I am still Dan.
So yes we have a lot to worry about but what good does worry really do? Worry can create such a debilitating feeling that you don’t want to do anything. At times like this you want to worry and let that feeling take over. But what really needs to happen is, FOCUS, focus on real life, God’s life, for you. I am trying to go about my life as normal; normal as it could be; if I worry that just takes me away, away from God and Sara. But really what do I have to worry about? I have everything, and nothing is all I need.
I am so confused sometimes. I want to trust in God. With our pray, and your prayer. God has to hear us, right? But what if? What if something does go wrong, do I say, “Why God didn’t you answer our prayers?”; I never ever want to say that, and if I do slap me. I want to trust God with all my heart, with all my spirit, why question?
If something does happen, I would hate to hear, “God has a plan”; because I would only think, “What plan are you talking about?” How could we ever say, “That’s God’s plan”, I don’t get it? We tend to say this about everything: it was God’s plan that those people died, It was God’s plan that I got that job, it was God’s plan that tsunami happened, it was God’s plan that the Eagles won the superbowl. We are taking it way to far, aren’t we? No, really. Am I wrong?
Why is it whenever something undetermined happens its Gods plan. I really am confused because I don’t think this way, and I have had a huge problem with this for a long time. My main reason is, Free Will, isn’t free will out of God’s hand, can or can’t he control our free will? I always thought not. And with free will controlling our lives good or bad how can a plan work? Example: His will was for me to accept Jesus, yes I believe this but how could he plan it? God’s “plan” couldn’t have included my acceptance of Jesus at age 16 at Horizon; because my decision that day was with my free will, without the option of no, it wouldn’t have never been true. Maybe I am just tired of people saying plan when they really should saying will. Because of course God’s will is for you to go down that path He has set forth for you, but he really can’t control you from turning in the wrong direction. I do believe though no matter what, he always has a path to lead you to his goals, no matter which way you go, no matter how lost you get, no matter what.
My life will always trust in God and I will always try to hear his directions no matter how rough the seas of life get; and now I know that not only God is there watching over us but you too; our “great team”.
Thank you.
After reading this over no wonder I named this blog Scattered Thoughts. Don’t worry if it confuses you it confuses me too.
