I am such a ****, I post all of these personal blogs where I speek about my life, then I get into this blogging thing and I find out how popular it is and I get scared. So scared or embarrassed about my real life that I start cropping.
What am I doing with this thing, this tool that helps me describe life? When I go back and read what I had typed earlier I found honesty and relevance in my journal. Then I made this journal a blog, something projected then something reflected. Like a projector I tried to show it to everyone but just like a projector the output is never as good as the origin.
I had made my journal an advertisement for the last week. Cropping what I wanted, shading and masking what I didnÃt want shown. You really might not see anything but I do. It gets me so irritated that I havenÃt posted what I intended to do when I made this blog.
Is it because I am not being personal? How is a personal Blog made?
I am really struggling…
I am really struggling over the personal blog, an oxymoron in a way. My journal is on the web, I tell people about it, there are links that might have lead you here, and look at the bottom there is a link where you can comment to tell me not to say ìdickî. I do want a personal journal, I want to tell stories of my life and I want them to be funny and real just like my life.
And that is my goal, to have a journal with thoughts that could be read and pondered. Thoughts of my scattered out life, Thoughts from/to God, and thoughts of my life situations.
Or am I just LAZY?
