So everyone knows this enrty Tolerated by Steam was NOT directed at anyone including theJames the great, except myself. All right? The part ìhas it become cool around the people that I talk to or converse through blogging to act like an asshole? YES.î is a revelation of myself and an attitude produced by myself.

Please read this comment I posted earlier:

“To clarify I did not mean that was the entirety of the situation. I do though think that TheJames, Stryker and many other friends of the same faith impressed something upon me to not hold my tongue. Its nothing to be defensive about whatsoever, because not only do I enjoy it but when I reference it to what I am going through its not integral to the situation. Because it explains the talk that I write on the web but by no means does it explain the tension in life. And the moments of anger that I slur out curse words resides much deeper then a few tagboard conversations.
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A Reminder to all, these entries are SCATTERED thoughts and are not always very rational.”

I have been thinking a lot about the entry, especially since it has stirred up some emotion against some friends. Something I never meant to do nor want to do. So as a disclaimer to the previous entry I am the sole proprietor of the feelings it ìbeing cool to be an assholeî. And it did not come out like I meant it, Clearly it did not.

The simple meaning behind that 1 and a half sentence statement was that I was becoming an ìassholeî, and I called myself an ìassholeî because I was becoming something that I am normally not. The behavior I am talking about is not the talk to the tagboard chicks that have been running rampant nor the comradery between the guys, its the stuff I read, see, and talk about that you donít see that makes me an ìassholeî. Even though I have been thinking a lot about this I really cannot explain it anymore then that.