I am such a ****, I post all of these personal blogs where I speek about my life, then I get into this blogging thing and I find out how popular it is and I get scared. So scared or embarrassed about my real life that I start cropping.
What am I doing with this thing, this tool that helps me describe life? When I go back and read what I had typed earlier I found honesty and relevance in my journal. Then I made this journal a blog, something projected then something reflected. Like a projector I tried to show it to everyone but just like a projector the output is never as good as the origin.
I had made my journal an advertisement for the last week. Cropping what I wanted, shading and masking what I didnÃt want shown. You really might not see anything but I do. It gets me so irritated that I havenÃt posted what I intended to do when I made this blog.
Is it because I am not being personal? How is a personal Blog made?
I am really struggling…
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